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Share Your Story; Concepts by S

24th January 2019

Welcome back to the Share Your Story series. Last time Lee-Ann from All You Yoga sharing her story why she started teaching Yoga. This week I will introduce you to Simona from Concepts by S who is sharing her story on Mental Health and how it can run in your family.

Concepts by S

I’m a twenty-something year old, trying to figure out life one blog post at a time. I started writing “Concepts by S” because I always have too much to say and not enough friends to listen to me.

Simona from Concepts by SWhen Mental Illness Runs in Your Family

The weekend before my 24th birthday I found out that my Grandad was admitted to a mental hospital.
He was paranoid. Convinced someone was out there to get him, convinced the furniture was floating above the ground, convinced the food my mum had brought over was poisoned. He had become a threat to himself.

That was the day I also found out that this was not the first instance in my family.
His mother also had some mental issues in the past. Over the years my mum had shown some red flags, but I always wrote it off to stress, being a single parent and having gone through domestic abuse. I’m not saying my mum is crazy, but like anyone, she also would benefit from seeing a professional, in my opinion.

I was diagnosed with depression (hate how that sounds) last year. It has been a difficult year. Blowing out the candles on my 24th birthday and making a wish for good mental health, didn’t really help.

There is plenty of evidence out there that some mental disorders run in the family and are ‘genetic root’ based.
That in itself is a scary thought.

At this point I know it’s me against the time. I’m just like everyone else in my family, a ticking time bomb. In some ways, I’m already there. Coming to terms with depression was one of the hardest things I’ve done in my life, now having to do that all over again is even more petrifying.

I’m not sure how I’m supposed to live now?

Taking one day at a time has never felt more accurate to me. I’ve never been much of a planner; now I’m too scared to plan.

Thankfully, I’ve never really have wanted children; this is another reason re-enforcing that.
If this runs in my family, in my DNA, why would I want to pass it on?
Why would I be so selfish?
That’s where the anger has been coming from lately. I’ve been angry at my family, which isn’t fair.

I’m still writing my story, so for now let my life be a reminder to people to look after themselves. To remember that even though the naked eye can’t see some things, it doesn’t mean they’re not there!
I might be scared and confused, but I am still here – championing tough one blog post at a time!

Thank you Simona for sharing your story with us today. I’m glad you have found a way of channeling your thoughts and feelings.

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